God some people are such jackasses. Honestly i cant name him! But recently im finding im slowly hating him. and yer i know hate is a strong word. but shorley if someone is out to make u misserable and constuntly have one up on you ,then hate is a adacuate phrase to use. God i hate you ***** ****** !!! And we will find we will have good days but my god what to do with those people that just wont to ruin your life. god sounding pathetic here but thats what a blog is for lol.... haha. ermm yer tom pull your self together okkk. thinking straight now lol. haha im just realised im writing what my conchence is saying to me. wow this is kinda weird but cool. yer. well enyways on my mind at the moment my band have got our first payed gig this weekend !! rumers dads birthday party. god i hope were good enough. but i mean 125 pounds is alot to give a band which u might be disapointed with. well i am saying now i am going to give it my all on sunday at this party. if they are dissapointed then im just not good enough. and will ether stop performing or wait a few years. well thats the idea. are bands put so much effort in to this. and atm im just not feeling im getting enything about it. were all frends and that. but every practice we just find our selves laughing when we each muck up of arguing about what song to do and not to do.. we do have some good tines though NIGHT DRIFT!! its this thing me and tom made up. were we break into the play school's toy closit and race this little kiddies trikes around the slippery hall. we make tracks and everything. one night we were a little wizzed up on relentles and when out on the road to the collage haha. god that was a good night. actually on the hole badn practice hasnt been to bad the past three years. yer i know three years and not one payed gig!! i know im thinking the same. enyways a cool film has come on were some dude is pointing a gun at an air hostesses head so im going to go now. byeee.